I'm so hungry

Thank you, olanzapine.

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TL;DR: Olanzapine, an antipsychotic medicine I'm on, is well known for spiking hunger, leading to weight gain. I write about my indiscriminate binge-eating where olanzapine could have played a prominent role, and the resultant health anxiety.

PS: I am not a mental health professional. This is an account of my personal experience with a psychiatric medicine. Nothing in this piece can be construed as medical advice. Do not self-medicate or go off medication without consulting a doctor.

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